So it's that time of year again. less than a week from now the gang is going to be shipping back home. For chestnuts roasted on an open fire, and taking in the time with family. You know come to think of it I did not want to let anyone know I was coming home, I mean you get pulled limb from limb from all the ones who wanna see you, and you don't know how to say you don't have that kind of time. But since I'm going to share this on facebook anyway I'm not really worried.
I rode up to Waterford Lakes tonight, got a chai and read some of Tour Smart if you wanna know what that is you can ask me. Well it was nice I wanted to get the dvd, I went to Barnes, and Movie stop then went to best buy and it's all online, nice huh oh well it was nice out, cool and breezy, but it was nice taking the time to go out there and the book was really worth it. I was out 25 bucks, and that from my loans but I mean it's just makes me more ready for my career and to me that's worth 25 bucks. Went to best buy and checked out thire music section had a Fender Hot Rod for 600 minus 25 percent. Man it stinks not having money plus I found out that Saboteur is out and I can't get it. Oh Well.
I had an epiphany wile I was out. I know when I go home savoring is the name of the game. right down to how the air feel on my hand. Reaping the benefits of hard works and this may be the only time I will be home. It hard to explain to your loved ones why the drifting. I feel bad and I want them to know I love them, but right now I'm not at the point where I can devote time to them. It's not that I hate being home I mean thats really not it it's just.. well I'll explain by telling my epiphany. I found that while I am excited to be back home as for sure I swear on the bible this is the truth, but I see that I know that my life at Full Sail is the life I currently only know. I don't know what's going on back home, and no one tells anything. There is this pandemic of introverts and insecurities and me being so far away there no new info of whats going on. I can roll with the punches as far as what is happening to my territory, but with my friends it hurts, and it's really uncomfortable it's getting to the point where I'm actually getting angry and bitter. It's not even that it only can be bad news it can be good new buy all means but I need to be aware of it. Readjusting to the surroundings are way more easier for someone moving back home than it is socially because of the human element. Now I'm not choosing to hate I mean I love my friends and they're family to me. It's just that it's something that I feel strongly about and I just would like to feel a little more connected to home, well to be short anyway.
This week we're finishing up the ark of projects that we have. It's great it's going by so fast, and this month as far as curriculum was pretty disappointing and I felt I didn't learns as much as we could have or as much as I wanted to. But hey you make the most out of it. I leave on Saturday and I get home in the afternoon, I think some of the gang is going away for the holidays, maybe Maine, I'm gonna be going to my aunts up in Fremont most likely. This week I'm gonna get ready with things i'm going to pack and Early morning flights on the day I'm going should be pretty easy, better than night when I came home last time we were stopping a jet on ice it was fun and all but I mean it's logan if you miss or go over the runway you end up in the Atlantic. But hey I'm just super grateful to be going home, and having a true real Christmas. You know trees are 75 bucks down here in the swamp. tis crazy. Well Merry Christmas to all, God Bless us, Everyone.
